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Name: Phoebe
Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Garland
Birthday: 2/18/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: i love being in love. i love my BFF of 7+ yrs Sofia:) me gusta many many alt rock stuff..AAR and Mae and FOB and Plain White T's and Hawthorne Heights and The Beatles times a quadrillion. i love the O.C. and CSI/CSI: NY/CSI: Miami..if you TRULY want to know my interests, ask.
Expertise: sleeping, eating, crying, uperdating this thingy, and uhh..wouldnt you like to know what else..?;-)
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  xReady4theNEW
Member Since:
9/18/2004
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| okay, so i havent written in here in ever. and i miss it. so heres whatever to whomever reads this still. - ive been driving for...4 months now. and im pretty good, except at night, cause contacts really suck for me in the dark..with lights everywhere. no me gusta.
- i had the BEST birthday EVER. no CRYING! yay! after 30 Hour Famine, Kevin took me to his house and then blinded me w/ my beanie while he drove to an undisclosed location..which turned out to be KYOTOs (in rowlett), where all my good friends were! (minus Sofia and Diana) Like, Kev, Atusa, Cory, Alex, Matt, Joe, VICTOR, and Sam..it was SWEET. food was sooo good, especially after fasting for forEVER, but it was expensive too...OH WELL. greatest thing ever. then on my actual bday, Kevin and i walked around this pond thing by his house, then i had ANOTHER surprise party @ Sofias house w/ her, Robbie, my mom, brother, Liam, Marilyn, Amanda, and Atusa&Cory. I had the AWESOMEST cake ever too! (spiderman chocolate chip cookie cake!) and lots of food, and presents! and cool spiderman decorations
 . it was niiiiice. i admit i didnt get many presents i wanted, but i definitely felt rather loved. it was great. - I made SHARE team, and I'm one of next year's Key Club secretaries
- I won Class Fave @ Winter Ball...weird, right?!
- Ive spent LOTS of time w/ the boy i love of 7 months and more.
- Yearbook has been great, despite my stress w/ the INDEX...ive never felt so responsible in there, and im getting closer to Forester in crazy ways. Thus ensuring some good times for next year
- one day i was super SICK (103* F temp) and kevin came over while my mom was home and sat by my side and cuddled w/ me and was all cute and stuff; bringing me medicine and gatorade and feeding me..i liked it.
- Les Miserables by GHS was GREAT! High School Musical by North...not so much. but i still enjoyed both very much.
- im doing pretty well w/ my hours for CAS/service clubs, i believe. not that hard guys...
- i get like, 5 college letters daily from random colleges..some good; like NYU, Columbia, CalTech, MIT, Rice, Stanford, Notre Dame, etc...now i just have to boil it down to a few so i know where to apply.
so lately...as in spring break-wise.. - i went to NEW YORK CITY from Saturday to Wednesday, and went everywhere. literally. empire state building, guggenheim museum, natural history museum (the one in Night at the Museum movie), Museum of Modern Art, Times Square, The UN, NYU!!!!, COLUMBIA!!!!, and other places. it was great.. and i met up w/ ATUSA there and we saw RENT together..even though we wanted to see Les Mis, it was still nice being together in a whole different state.
- when i got back, i hung out w/ kevin lots. and Sofia too :) we all went to Lake Joe Pool on friday w/ our lovers...getting lost for 3 hrs or so just trying to find it!, and swam in 59* F water...effing FREEZING, but so much fun.
- On saturday, i did science fair, then Diana and I met up w/ her Forum friend KEVIN (
 ) @ West Village and hung out a bit..it was so nice. Then we went to KERA w/ MY kevin for 4 hours! que divertido! - Today kevin and i went to KERA @ 9am and stayed till 5pm...8 freakin hours. but it was nice, other than my barfing after eating Chipotle. Lets just say my stomach and their burritos do not mix well. But Pei Wei and my stomach do!
thats all for now. i know its too much for you guys to handle, but i felt like just revealing everything there was to say. im enjoying life right now, even though the freakiness of E.E., SAT/ACT, IB, COLLEGE, and such are scaring the hell out of me and looming over my shoulder...eeekk. well overall...things are good. | | |
| i surrender. i dont want to try anymore. i screw up. i cant accomplish happiness. i cant be loyal. i cant be open. i cant be a follower. i cant be a leader. i cant contribute to society.
argh
if thats too much negativity for you, then press that nice little (x) sign in the top right corner.
i have no friends. cause i dont matter to anyone. okay, maybe like 4 people. whoopdedoo. lets have a party.
screw socializing
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| so guess what
i can DRIVE now!!
so anyone that ever needs a reasonable ride give me your spare change and we're done. kay?
happy thanksgiving
adios
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| okay. no one ever reads this, but i figure i might as well do it.
its been a month or so since ive uperdated, and of course, lots has happened.
but lifes too short to give you details on EVERY little thing that has occurred..so..heres a synopsis.
-29 days till my license
-I GOT MY BRACES OFF!! i need my retainer quickly, cause the gaps are coming back. =o
-i think things are getting better with certain someones..and then again, worse with other someones..which sucks
-officer stuff has taken over my life.
-oh, i sold 39 pens in the pen sale..which is rather nice, other than not winning the $100. oh well. at least im assured lots of income to 08's account. yippie!
-no one wrote on my new posters yaaaaay. me and my geniusness of putting tape on the words.
-my two months w/ KB was last tuesday
-i PASSED anatomy w/ a 75! (or 74..whatever) yaaaaay. lets aim for a B now, yeah?
-i made good grades in other classes too! but more on that when report cards are in.
-im so freaked about PSATS. i just want to be as close to national merit as possible, but thats never gonna happen..so..im aiming for a 200+, deal?
-im making homecoming mums w/ my BFF and its gonna be super neat
-garland football is 3-2, so thats not toooo bad. god, i hope we get district. and go into playoffs. thatll be neat.
-i surely have alot of CAS hours, but have not recorded any of them. me and my laziness.
-i went to the fair on fair day w/ KB. it was niiiiiice. and saw 934068436798436 people from our school or that i knew. man.
-im trying to be less confused on certain matters..and i think im doing good so far.
-i did my highway lesson and three observation hours on wed and thurs. yay.
-homecoming is gonna be stressful as hell.
-speaking of which, rowlett's is this saturday, and im SO going with my lovely boyfriend :)
-SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS #13 PARTY @ B&N on friday!!! yaaaaaaaay!
and the biggest load of crap uperdate of all:
-so yesterday (saturday), i had alot to do (PSAT class, craft fair, deb dress sale, south gtown library book sale), so i was going to take the moped to all of the above. well. i didnt make it that far. i didnt even make it off my street. something of my own stupid doing caused me to fall, along with the moped, and hit a parked car. i skidded a bit, and landed somewhat under the car, except my helmet kept me from going under it. im in pain, and bleeding in various places, and torn and whatnot, and i see my moped..and its half way under the car. mind you, the car itself was not horribly damaged, just tiny miniscule scratches in front, but the license plate was bent upwards..the only bad thing. but my moped was a wreck. the front part of it (the decorative flowery part) was drooping off, but still attached, the left handle was bent IN, and the right side flowery part was cracked. oh and the engine stopped running. so here i am in pain, and trying to pull it out (with success) and i called my mom and was all freaked and i had to push the moped away from the car quickly and did so back home (this all occurred about 5 houses down my street) and yeah. my dad pushes it in the house and my mom tended to my wounds. which hurt like a bitch.
-right hand has a mediocre cut, and various fingers are scraped
-big ugly swollen scrape thing on my knee
-weird skinless patch on my elbow that hurts like heck
swollen scrape thing on my hip that hurts alot
-various tiny scratches on other parts of me
so, had it not been for my helmet, id likely have some brain damage or something, cause my helmet took alot of scratches and crap. i would not be very pretty right now if i hadnt worn that and my hoodie. so yeah. yesterday sucked beyond belief.
as of now, my entire back is in pain, sore or whatever, as is my right knee. cant really bend it, but its okay. im sure i didnt break anything. but then again..how could i tell? it hurt to pick things up with my right hand, and my right arm overall is sore. im probably being a big baby from all these "injuries" and its probably no big deal. but whatever. im in pain, and my main mode of transportation is broken. not dead, i dont think. and now life sucks more than ever. i feel realllly stupid for what happened, and now i dont know how everything will function. pretty sure my dad hates me (even more now) for ruining his beloved moped. sorry for your $2000 moped, dad. sorry im such a screw-up. argh.
so pretty much, im in pain, and stressed. and bleh-feeling. and few people really care. i know i shouldnt expect people to be running to my every need..but youd think theyd be like, woah. i mean..just think about the what-ifs? what if i slammed RIGHT into the car, or hadnt worn a helmet, or didnt have the ability to dial the phone and call my mom, or crashed on a main street, with cars rolling and all, or anything? what if it was worse than this? would you even care? would you even notice?
just my little epiphany of life. if you can call it that.
must go do hwk. | | |
| HEYYYY all. so its been about four weeks since i wrote in here. and that obviously too many days (29 or so) to uperdate on. so ill give you the highlights
-ive already had my first IB breakdown..no bueno. in case you didnt get the picture, lets emphasize (cause this xanga is solely about me, correct?) all the stress i have:
IB, class president, yearbook sec. editor (yet to have edit, que bueno), NHS, SNHS, Key Club, StuCo, SADD/light brigade, leadership council, deb manager.
am i forgetting anything? ah well. sure, they dont all (at times) happen simultaneously..but yeah. dont mock my pizza face, because i have quite a bit on my plate already without your insults, thank you.
-i only get to ride the bus on thurs&fris. which SUcKS cause then i cant talk to jonahs or david (we talk again!!) and i have to walk to DART all the time in the blazing heat, but 56 days!!!!! till my license!
-speaking of, fifty-six days until my license!!!! OMG i cant wait.
-i got my hair highlighted for $20 (dont ask, you wont be able to do it for that much). and its neato. at least i think so.
-people ABSOLUTELY confuse me. theyre up and down and AGH. i dont have the tolerancy-level-stuff to handle your emotions. like me or not. then leave me alone if the latter.
-i really dont like waking up @ 5:45am every weekday morn..thats frustrating, especially when i go to bed @ 2:30 or so from homework..no bueno.
-i like my friends. they amuse me to no end.
-boyfriend and i are still going strong. heck yeah. annnnnd i reallllly like *love* him, so its all good.
-im going to very much enjoy burgin && zembower. theyre deff. interesting.
-im NOT going to enjoy anatomy. like the teacher, but i just SUCK so much at science. GAH
-i went to church for the first time in ever last wed. with KEVIN. :]
-i also took kevin to Garlands BOTB. bwahahaha is all i can say.
-my week is usually consumed with officer stuff. no bueno. except kinda. i dont know.
-im getting buffetted by mosquitoes right now. hope this is worth it.
-i ordered my class ring! yippie!
-as everyone knows, Joel got seriously hurt at the DeSoto game, and i hope he gets much better soon. i heart that kid.
-OMG OMG OMG OMG I HATE OUR EFFING SCHOOL. IMMATURE LITTLE ASSHOLES. *pardon my ranting*YOUD THINK BY NOW PEOPLE WOULDVE GROWN OUT OF VANDALIZING SHIT THAT WILL HELP THEM PAY LESS FOR PROM, WHERE THEY REPRODUCE LIKE RABBITS ANYWAY. URRRRRRGH i HATE those people. i dont care who they are, they should all get bricks dropped on their heads. from such great heights. AND THEN THEY HAVE THE DECENCY TO SCREAM OUT "08" AT RALLIES AND WRITE IT AMONGST THEIR ITEMS. NOTE TO YOU: IF YOU ARENT DOING JACK CRAP TO SUPPORT YOUR CLASS, YOU HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO RIGHT TO GIVE FALSE NOTIONS THAT YOU DO! BESIDES, MOST OF THE PEOPLE IM TALKING ABOUT WILL LIKELY FAIL A FEW TIMES, OR DROP OUT AND JOIN GANGS, THUS CAUSING THEM TO not GRADUATE WITH 2008 ANYWAY!! (can you tell how much this pisses me off??) ESPECIALLY when i worked extra hard on those damned posters, cause i rock at propaganda like that, and ARGH. i hate people. end of story.
-speaking of which, you all better sell pens. AT LEAST five. come ON people.
-i cant STAND seeing some people. it swells me up with bitter hate and loathe and all these other things i dont wanna feel.
-i really need to study. geargh.
-great. i got 6 mosquito bites from writing all this. UGGGGGGH summer, why wont you end?!?!
-CIWWAF is @ gypsy tea room on friday, and I CANT go due to FOOTBALL. ARGH!! oh well, theres another one in a month..i better go to that one, or else.
- my braces will likely come off on FAIR day, which is oct 2 or so. SO YAY! less than a year of being a brace-face!
-OH YES. and a certain jackass thought it would be fun to vandalize my shit. uhm, NO. UGH.
moral of the story is:
- -im stressed. majorly.
- -i DO NOT like vandalisim and disrespect and apathy.
- -sell pens, juniors!
- -come to owl conference on saturday, 8-1pm (screw PSAT class for one day!!)
- -i really need to study.
- -i like Kevin. much.
- -today is september 11th. have some courtesy and respect and think of all the crap going on or went on. how everythings changed since that day five years ago, for better or for worse. just think. thats all.
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